give and take

Perhaps, each time I log on to fill an empty space - really to push off a feeling - I could say instead of read. I could say for instance that finally finally it began to rain tonight after so many hours of warnings, and now there is a delightful steady drizzle and I was watching Kushner's Angels in America, genius, and thinking I understand how he sees the world, and thinking about honesty and love and loyalty, and thinking there is a great deal more I need to say, and often - often - I wonder how long I can possibly wait before saying it.